by Jacque Gonzales

Anxiety has really done a number on me…and it’s not letting up.

With all that’s going on in our county between COVID-19 and racial injustice – my anxiety keeps me from making any daily progress on things that I need to do.

While I’m high risk for Coronavirus because of my asthma and poor immune system – I’ve only been away from the house once – about 2 1/2 weeks ago to take my daughter Theresa to her school to pick up her things – and to drop off my mail-in ballot for our Pennsylvania primary. Which sadly, because of COVID-19 my doctor advised me not to work the election (I’m an Inspector of Elections for my precinct.) – and I felt awful not being there. Luckily, our precinct was combined with another one and there were enough poll-workers.

My husband Jim is back to work for the last 2 weeks – and he’s been the one picking up groceries and our drive-up orders from Target – and always wearing a mask. While Theresa keeps diligent track of everyone’s hand-washing and the duration (she posted instructions on the refrigerator, in case we forget how to properly scrub up.). Theresa and I will continue to stay at home as long as possible – and wear our masks whenever we do go out.

The dogs, Grace and Zoey, are still thrilled we’re home with them – and are taking full advantage of any extra love (or food) they can get. Thankfully, petting your dog (or other pet) is helpful for anxiety…and luckily they aren’t tired of me calling them to come and sit next to me.

I’ve got no energy – and I know that exercising helps combat tiredness – but I’m SO TIRED – I can’t do anything. That’s a problem. Theresa and I want to start walking in our neighborhood this week – and hope that becomes a good stress reliever and an energizer as we keep it up.

With so much weighing on so many people – if you need help – know that help is always available! Here’s a list of Crisis Helplines to save on your phone and/or keep in your home:

I’m just run down, stressed, tired…and feeling especially helpless in what I can do to help others right now. Is anyone else feeling the same way?

Jacque 💜

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Barbara Pierce July 23, 2020 - 12:01 PM

So glad I found you. I’m not computer savy so didn’t know how to go about finding you so tried facebook. You can’t hide in there !! I’ve missed you on the Q. I’m so glad you are doing ok under the circumstances. Please take care of yourself & hopefully, just hopefully, this will be over soon, I know by Mid Nov it will be. Are you going to go back onto QVC? I do hope so. We miss you. Please take care.

Laurie Boettner June 26, 2020 - 3:39 PM

I’m so glad you’ve shared how you’re feeling Jacque. You are definitely not alone. I miss seeing your smiling cheerful face on my TV but I’m so glad i get to keep up with you. This is a very difficult time we’re going through. Some days I’m okay and sometimes I just want to cry all day. Hang in there! Sending lots of love, hugs and prayers your way!

Sherry Ballard June 25, 2020 - 12:34 PM

Praying for you

Marianne Lamberts June 23, 2020 - 10:53 PM

I know exactly how you feel, Jacque! No motivation makes me nuts! I know where every little piece of dirt lives in my house!
How the hell to you find a romantic partner in this atmosphere? LOL. Oh, well, this will not be forever. Hang in everyone!

mollystar June 23, 2020 - 7:01 PM

Jacque, your openness about your anxiety is such a comfort to the rest of us who share those feelings. About a year ago I learned of Nanea Hoffman and her website She created “Anxiety Blob” – best to check this out rather than have me try to explain her magical creation. I don’t know Nanea but I follow her work. She is a treasure…just like you. Hugs to you and the family—including Gracie and Zoey!

Doris June 23, 2020 - 3:15 PM

I am right there with you my friend; never have I been so very tired, exhausted and have absolutely no energy to do what needs to be done. Praying for anwers!

Rowena June 23, 2020 - 3:40 PM

I feel the same way. No energy and no motivation

Louise Anderson June 23, 2020 - 3:06 PM

Jacque….you have expressed my feelings very well. I am 71…not been away from apartment since mid March…except last week when my husband fell and nocked out a front tooth…had to take him to insta care. Have been hit with a major migraine…and believe all my anxiety has finally hit its max. Have been trying to do in home senior exercise videos from youtube…other than that….I really wonder where all this is going to leave us. Blessings and better care to you and family.

Darlene Rose June 26, 2020 - 3:25 PM

Hi Jacque! Sorry to hear about your anxiety. I have a 45 yr old daughter with it and a 41 yr old daughter with it and both are pretty bad have to keep busy with it no question. Go for that walk with your daughter you’d feel so much better. I know it’s hard in this crazy world we live in with everything going on.i understand isolating yourself because I do. I’m 70 and is on oxygen 24/7 and I’ve had lung cancer so I live like a Hermit right now.i live in a large senior complex and nobody even my kids can come into apt. Yesterday they had a little birthday get together for me out in the yard. Distancing! So please Jacque it only gets worse the longer you go get outside. Be praying for you! God bless

Kathryn Wise June 23, 2020 - 2:26 PM

Hi. I have to take a Med for anxiety and it helps a lot. Am taking care of my husband of 50 years. He had Parkinsons and he took a nasty fall last week and dislocated his shoulder. Lucky the Drs got it back in place. But I’m afraid to leave him alone to go to my lymphedma appt. I know exactly how you feel. I was lucky to find you again. Always loved you on QVC.
I pray for you to have brighter days ahead.
Kitty Wise. I don’t do much email

Nina Mendlewski June 23, 2020 - 1:32 PM

Jackie I don’t belong to Facebook so I wasn’t sure how to contact you. I do occasionally receive a message from you in my mailbox. I hear you loud and clear about what this is doing to you and so many. I do not have PTSD but I am a senior citizen that has had to stay home for a long period of time with no one coming to my house and I live alone. I haven’t seen my son and his wife in months. I need a hug!! lol The lonesomeness has really taken a toll. Please be grateful for having your husband and daughter with you to keep some normalcy. I know it’s not easy no matter what your situation but hang in there. I was wondering why I have been so tired and I know depression has set in. It’s all related to stress and I have never been one to handle change. The older you get, (and I don’t mean someone your age) but as a retired 68 yr old you get to love and depend on a routine of some sort. Well that has gone to hell!! LOL Michigan is just now opening up again with some major restrictions and even restaurants with limited patrons. I have to tell you just being with people again makes all the difference in the world. So important being social!! Good luck to you and God Bless to you and your family Nina

Nancy June 23, 2020 - 12:27 PM

Yes I do know how you are feeling. You’re not alone


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